Only my weak mind to blame
Yeah I know, its just weak minded people who struggle with this. Even if its a pack on a night out or just a couple a week, its still there. Here is a poem by my good mate Miller - I couldn't have put it any better:
there's a world without cigarettes
but i can't find it
beyond the tips of my fingers
further than the end of my face
this taste of things to come
this slow subconscious suicide
has swallowed me like a secret
I don't smoke at all really compared to your 10, 20 or 30 a day man, I probably won't touch one for about 2 weeks now, but why do I feel the need?! Why do I bother!? Miller was right........its a slow subconcious suicide.
posted by The Leonard Files at 1:44 PM
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hahaha - I feel terrible about what I wrote now, Leonard - what was is ? : "the wankers can smoke themselves to death for all I care" - will you forgive me? -haha :).
oh course that SHOULD have been "what was IT" :).
"swalled me like a secret"
love that line...
don't worry you can quit -
you can do it:)
Get a really hot girlfriend who "crosses her legs" until you quit.
Worked for Brad Pitt!!
the author kurt vonnegut (whose books i mostly love) also has said that smoking is a way of slowly committing suicide ... ;-D
i don't mind, just every once in a while, a small hand-rolled smoke made using good tobacco. but i can't stand 'regular' or 'tailor-made' cigarettes
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subconscious suicide...hmmmm...
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Winters --
If you can't find the answer then I never will, I do think though that maybe smokers are not the long term planning types, you never seriously think about any consequence way down the line, you just think this one cig right here and now will make me feel better.
lee --
Stick by those words - you cannot give the smoker any sympathy, they deserve nothing, and besides if they all did smoke themselves to death, why should you care? Nice post of yours by the way.
Gretchen --
Your right, a drink and a cig is a happy chemical marriage in the body (at the time) especially if your mates are in the pub doing the same thing.
Sophie --
I am always confident I can quit at any moment, but I just haven't yet?! Is this classic addiction mentality? ... possibly
Zen --
Wise words as always, I can't believe I didn't go down that road earlier.
fergal --
Welcome, I've never read anything by Kurt Vonnegut but maybe Miller did?! I'm with you on the rollies thing, the problem with them though is when you get to the bottom of the pack and you start scrapng for all those little dry bits to pack it out a bit.....it is certainly grim, but I still do it!?
Len, I 'quit' drinking as in, I will never drink again. I hope. I think. My plans. I do not smkoe. However, I WILL smoke. I have a pack (actually TWO!) that I have had since-well, one since the first of August, and the other is only like 3 weeks old. I will smoke a cig, or a half a one. I can go for days without eventhinking about it. I am almost afraid to quit completely or to say I quit, b/c if I eff up then I will feel I have failed myself.
As for the cartoon: NO! Never even HEARD of it!
thank you for the link!
WOOOO
yes that bottom-of-pack scenario certainly is grim!
for the record: my favourite tobacco is 'bank' (i believe it's dutch).
having said this, i think i've only ever personally bought 2 packs of tobacco in my life ...
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~d --
I'm very impressed with the drinking, or lack of it rather - keep that going. As for the cigs, sounds like you're in a similar boat to me, you can not even conider it for days, even weeks, but it comes back to you for some bizarre reason.
That cartoon (captain Pugwash) was the first time I ever heard the term "pirate" although, it was a very English cartoon, if I remember rightly the pirates actually sounded relatively polite and posh!
fergal --
I've never heard of "bank" I normally go for "Drum" or "Golden Virginia" for no reason other than that's what the shops I go in normally stock.
A friend soaked my ciggies in sour milk and dried them out....
They tasted foul and put those out... reached for a new fresh smoke and that was that.
My brother taught me to smoke "to be one of the boys" and I can assure you - despite saying I should never forgive him, but actually I cant thank him enough.. I love my ciggies!
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