Up North......................
Accelerating towards total darkness, like I'm looking back from a train once its entered the tunnel. The darkness can get to you if you let it, what gets me the most though is the rain, seemingly endless drizzle that could wash away your mind. Combining the endless night with the rain can break a person, it takes away your energy; it starts to make decisions for you: Me: “shall I go out tonight, round my mates pad, or to the pub in town?” Late November: “Nah, you don’t want to go out in this, best relax, try and finish that book, watch some TV or maybe write a few emails, or just go to bed, busy day tomorrow – unless the weather is shit again, then you may as well stay put”.
The light at the end of this tunnel is too far away to contemplate, this will make things worse. There is always something in this life to look for or to think about. It can come in many forms, just like making the most of those last few days before school started again, or when you manage to speak to someone new on a journey to work, not that this was a frequent event, but when it happens, everything seems better, that is the power of the mind.
When the snow finally arrives for good, that white blanket seems to lift an entire town, whether it’s just the simple natural beauty of freshly fallen snow or the extra light that exists when everything is white. I am craving for a break, to see the snow, to walk on the lakes of ice, to walk on the sea, out to islands that can be miles away. I've even been told it’s possible (although not recommended) to walk to Finland……maybe next year for that one!? But soon I hope I'll get to do these things again, and I hope I see the nordic lights, green and blue (and sometimes red if you’re very lucky) travelling across the sky like they have the knowledge of what it is to be a phenomenon, vague and unpredictable, a little different every time, it amazes me how something like that can be so silent.



